PicNPay Highway

What I am about to tell you may not seem like an ‘epiphany’ to some readers but the I checked the dictionary definition and it stated the word as “A moment of sudden understanding or revelation”, and for me this was one of those moments. I was walking down to the local store from my place when I began to notice what most guys notice during the onset of spring, SHORT EVERYTHING. I remember stating a week earlier on my blackberry messenger status that the time had come to start walking looking down. I was feeling particularly vulnerable at this moment, could have a been a failed attempt to finish a scholarship essay due this Friday, or fatigue from a whole day workshop on clinical trials. Whatever the reason I felt the temptation to look a little bit longer or maybe just a second glance. In that moment I felt something in me say, “It may look appetising now, but in the end you get used to everything.” This sentence puzzled me as I walked into the store and looked for items that I needed to purchase. I started thinking of the implications of that statement, if I were to date a young lady, no matter how hot she looks I would get used to it ? I don’t know about you but this was a frightening realisation for me, I felt a bit like Solomon in Ecclesiastes 2 where he states his multiple pleasures of life and ends the chapter with these words “....This makes no more sense than chasing the wind.” (CEV)

I began thinking of the classical male view of male:female struggles, which I myself had supported vehemently many a time. Simply this view states that, female problems with immorality are emotional and male problems are physical. Though there are merits to this view, highlighting the visible elements of male and female sexual immorality struggles, it takes away from the male experience the issue of the heart and degrades it to hormonal triggers and erections. To get back to my story, I managed to buy what I needed from the store, as I walked back that’s when the epiphanic phrase hit me “NOTHING ELSE SATISFIES BUT YOU”. For most people who believe in Jesus, these words have been sung in songs and preached in sermons. There really is nothing epiphanic or radical about the phrase, or so I used to think. Let me help you get into my head a little bit, think of the thing you love the most or are most fond of, resist the temptation to quickly say “Jesus” if you are a Christian. That thing that popped into your head, will never satisfy. It could be music, I love music so much,, spend an hour with me and I will mention something music related. But I realised I can have every Christian album ever written and at the end of the day, that part of me that seeks contentment will not be filled. Maybe you are a guy and having the hottest girl really makes you feel awesome. At some point that girl will not look as hott as she did, not cause she has aged, but just cause she is no longer new. Then you will go to the next one and she’s hot for a while but then she loses her zing again. And you keep changing from one girl to the next, the only thing that changes are the girls and never aching desire for contentment.

So I thought to myself on that walk back that for a long time I had been avoiding looking at scantly dressed women (which is a good practice and advise all guys to do), but all that had changed was that I didn’t look at scantly dressed women, my heart was still the same, longing for whatever most satisfies. So I seek to encourage all my brothers out there who are like me, to see our desires not through the primitive lens of just a physical appetite, but more an appetite of our heart. I also encourage those who haven’t met Jesus yet, and have felt like I did today that all my endeavours without Him being the main source of satisfaction where like chasing the wind, to seek Him now and have your hearts longings be satisfied

Love, peace and happiness

Tau