Vessel......

So today was like any other Friday but little did I know this day would end up with me here on my laptop connecting the dots and sharing with you guys here on my blog. So woke up today and it was another ordinary Friday for me, took a shower like always, changed and headed out with an acoustic guitar on my back (had performed the night before at an awards dinner... #funtimes). So I walk out of my building heading to a mates flat to return his acoustic and this guy runs up to me from behind (living in Joburg makes you vigilant so my adrenaline was already pumping as his thudding steps drew closer), he stops me and says hi. So this guy is a Christian (boy was I relieved) and he had been praying to God asking him what route He need to take to serve God better. And he felt he was going to serve God through music and was looking for an acoustic guitarist. So when he saw me he felt I was the dude. So ya a random occurrence but a good one, just that God led this guy to speak to me, this guy didn't know my name or whether I was a Christ follower (takes guts hey). For all he knew I could have been a weed smoking, atheist who could play guitar..i digress... Anyway it just showed me how specific and personal God is.

So I get through my day and my lectures were as ordinary as can be. I get to my MMUF (Mellon Mays Undergraduate Fellowship) program workshop and have a couple of discussions with the cohorts and fellows from last year. Before we leave though we get this nearly 400page book on the life of Benjamin E. Mays called Born to Rebel. I found that title caught me as I entered my room this evening, what a catchy title. So tonight I went to a concert by Martin Smith (lead singer of Delirious-christian band from England) and it was such an awesome night. The lighting, sound, instrumentalists, all my technos out there you know what it feels like when everything just works well together. So he sings a couple of famous tracks like 'My Glorious', 'Majesty',  'History Maker', so it was really good to hear tracks I have been listening to for as long as I remember being sung live. So he starts talking about when as a band they decided to split to raise their families and spend more time with them. How he desired an amazing more intimate relationship with his wife, and how he felt God say to him the thing he desired with his wife God desired with him. It was just good to hear some of the stories behind the songs that he sang. and how God was using him in amazing ways.

After such a day of God speaking to me and me only connecting the dots right at the end I feel what he is saying tonight is "Are you the vessel or are you the potter?" Just with the guy I met in the morning he asked me to be his acoustic player, thinking back now how many times have I made worship about me. Have i made leading worship about what I can and cannot do, but God was just coming to me in the middle of my street and saying I need you to be an acoustic player. Funny thing is that God chose me not because I am gifted but because when He asked me I was willing to be used. so now why has it become about gifting, Why does it always seem that when we start off serving God we are vessels but slowly as we get better at what we do we turn into potters. Found it such a challenge today and really felt God really wants me to be a vessel qha(as the Xhosa's would say). So tonight I am humbled, I am in awe and most of all I am at peace. Because the God of the universe chose me, desires me and is with me every step of the way. I pray that when you feel you can't see what's ahead anymore you can sing these words:

God is bigger than the air I breathe

The world we'll leave

And God will save the day

And all will sing my glorious

My glorious

love, peace and happiness

Tau