Been thinking lately about what I did in 2008, and I think by far the coolest thing was going to three ZAMHOLS camps. These are christian youth camps and remember early in the morning waking up and chilling by the dam wall. With water rushing jus under the dam wall. The son rising and a bunch of guys just spending some quiet time with God. I would know that no matter how tired I was from months of work. I would have one week were I could wake up and hear the soft rush of water and smell God's creation.
After ten days of spending quantity time with God I got a bit of quality time. A time of refreshing is what I would call it, I had been so afraid of being by myself. But just the past days of some me and God time have been more than refreshing. I think the biggest fear I had of being alone was that i would always be like that. But then I started reflectong on all the people who have ever been in my life. I have met and been close with a lot of amzing people, some I lost, some still there but the funny thing is, if I look at it I was the uncoolest of the bunch. These people dodn't hang out with me cause I of what I had (they couldn't cause I didnt have much), but I believe God brought them in exactly the people I needed at a certain point. So got to thinking who am I to try garner people's approval to make them stay, when them getting to know didn't require that at all. I used to say this, still do that I am a very fortunate person. I've got a God who loves me(full stop). I'm not afraid anymore, am not afraid of letting go or of being by myself. Because from now on I am sure of one thing, that I'm never alone, that God makes sure of.
You may be like me, been seeking answers and nothing seemed to make sense. He's there, always been there with His arms wide open. Get into the zone and be refreshed, God loves you.
love, peae and happiness
Tau
2 comments:
Its so key to have a time when God really soothes and you see life differently and experience a love that sees right through who we are on the surface. God has made us and you intinmately and with that I feel refreshed by reading this. I long for more times of refreshing, to be refreshed by the Lord himself! God bless!
I so envy you on that one,havent exactly experienced a time of refreshing before.I am always around people -never alone,even when I am alone its like I am not by myself, I hope to get one soon because I need Him to refresh my soul every single day. You are totally blessed :)
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