Day Two...

I write this post in quite a bit of physical pain as it feels like my back just had a sledge hammer driven through it. But anyway aside from that, I was very encouraged from the early hours of the morning today just the responses that came via texts, calls and comments with guys just resonating with my post yesterday. If it did nothing else it showed me that God is listening and its His way of telling me that I'm not alone, so thank you guys. Kind of reminds me of that verse  1Cor10:13 just says nothing has seized us that is uncommon to man. So it was sort of a wake up call for me that made me get off my 'special case' high horse and realise, we are are all facing tough lessons in one way or another.

So Day 2, started out really well considering how Day1 was, you know the bible says that sorrow may last for a while but joy comes in the morning. I think not only joy but clarity as well. A lot of things became clearer about the way I felt yesterday. Like my loneliness was it a case of I missed someone or I missed the feeling I had when I was with that person. I know difficult to look at it that way, but just woke up being challenged to question my motives. How often do we question our motive guys, why do we do the things we do. Is it for our benefit or for the benefit of others. Is it for gain or purely for love, WOW!!! this really shook me. Really brought me down to a earth and stop feeling sorry for myself and get in line with what God is doing. To stop trying to get out of my situation but allow God to transform me through it. There's a lot of stuff I don't know about what I'm going through right now, but one thing I do know is that God WON'T CHANGE. He still is the faithful, loving, merciful, just and life giving GOD.

I've just been going throught the Psalms (I like to call them 'David's Journal Entries') and was moved by one today, Psalm 17. In it David is complaining about the unrighteous and all the bad things happening to Him but he has been following God's command. But after all that complaining he ends off the Psalm with a beautiful line

'I will be satisfied with Your presence'

And I think, God loves it when we come to Him with our grievances much like me yesterday. But we come back to a place of saying ' I am satisfied with Your presence'. Because ultimately when we are satisfied in God, disappointments still disappoint but God doesn't. Our jobs, careers, relationships, grades, anything else will reach its limit. But God will remain the one thing we can rely on to always satisfy.

love, peace and happiness

Tau