Letting it go.....

Today my morning started out in a rather interesting way. My roomate fell asleep watching Flash Forward and when I woke up I felt the urge to watch it. Its a series about a day Oct 9 when thw whole world blackouted for 137 secs and each person saw themselves 6 months in the future. Zoning in there's the interesting plot of the detective who sees himself going back to alcohlism and his wife seeing herself with another man. Interesting enough they are in constant conflict over each other's 'flash forward' and the wife says something very intrigiung. She says, "It's not about the drinking or the other man, its's just that we don't trust each other anymore."

Trust, such a small word but has a very big implications. What do we mean when we say we trust someone? It's a very big question because no matter how we look at it we live in a world were people will betray our trust. But what do we do then, when we trust  people with our lives and they let us down. I guess the first step is always the hardest and thats forgiveness. We throw around words like 'I forgive you', but do we really know what forgiveness entails. It's not a warm  fuzzy feeling we get and end up feeling good about ourselves. But like anything that has love in the mix, forgiveness is all about choices. It's about choosing to let go, its about choosing to take that leap of faith with people who have hurt us. It doesn't mean we don't have the scars of betrayal but thats when we look back on them we don't do so with bitterness.

I remember when I was about 10 we used to go play miniature golf with my brothers. And this one time my brother swung a gold club at me and I have the scar on my forehead to this day. That scar will always be with me and whenever I feel it on my forehead I remember that day, but not with the anger I had that day. But as a memory of something that once happened. If you ask yourself today do you have scars of your past that you keep jabbing with a knife and are not allowing to heal. Maybe you have a metaphoric gun to someone's head and looking for a reason to pull the trigger. If we keep looking for reasons for people to let us down, believe me we will find them. I guess I am always by Colossians 3:13 which reads:

Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Always know you are never alone, thats what Jesus is there for. To help us forgive like we never knew we could. Lets keep relying on him.

Love, peace and happiness

Tau